Getting close to the 9-month mark of your Heavenly journey. It’s odd to think it takes about 9 months to grow a perfectly wonderful baby. The pain is great. You watch as your body grows and changes. You sometimes get scars. You go through sickness and so many emotional changes. In the back of your mind you keep plugging away thinking I know this is all gonna be worth it. It comes time to deliver and you are overwhelmed with such pain ….nothing to compare it to. Then you hear… it’s a…boy or boys in my case. You hold and make eye contact and suddenly everything you just put your body through for 9 excruciating months is worth it to hold such a beautiful little angel. Now I am here and there are so many similarities. Our pain has been great, and we have so many scars that cannot be seen. We have physically felt pain and sickness of such grief that nothing compares. It’s almost 9 months and I know I will not get to hold you or look at your beautiful face…not yet anyway. In my mind I often question what is the point of all of this. My mind is suddenly swept back to a flood of sweet memories. Duncan this is absolutely the hardest thing I have ever gone thru but I would 100 percent do it again for any amount of time given with you. Every day I pray to God that this journey counts. That God takes the pain and uses it for His Glory and to win souls. I pray your struggle will help someone as well as our struggle without you. I love you much and hold your memories until I can hold you once more.
Love,
Mom
